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Health Update: May/June/July 2018

31 Jul

I am going to admit something to you right away – I’m starting this but have no idea when it’ll get finished and posted! With my OH’s graduation and party on Sunday, my parents coming into town today and donation boxes/a dog park run to do before they get here, I’m just not sure how much of this I’ll actually get written today. But, “Well begun is half done”.

**Update: It’s now July 30th and I am just now getting back to this post! The party has been thrown (along with a second one beginning of this month) the parents have come and gone, along with another couple of guests, many dog park runs have occurred and I’m woefully behind on so much that I’ve intended to do. But, this is step one in getting back on track!

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Overall Health: I have been a bit better this month. Fatigue has still been a major problem. My back seized up early one morning and it took almost two weeks before it stopped hurting. I’ve seen some improvement in my every-few-weeks flaring, which has been such a relief.

May 14 saw bodywork Dr. Worked on whole left side. 
May 15 saw main Dr. Going to start neuroflam. Also went major grocery shopping today. Was worn out in afternoon, dehydrated, some brain fog. Took detox bath in evening, wiped me out.
May 16- woke up with severe fatigue. Slept again until noon. Joints achy and a 7 migraine. Fatigue isn’t so severe this afternoon.
May 18- a better day. Was able to do some light cleaning, cooking, etc. Migraine didn’t hit till later afternoon and then harder in evening. First evening in at least a week that my hip hasn’t hurt and my calf hurts half as bad.  Fatigue isn’t near as bad but still underlying.
May 20- monthly started. Hungrier than normal. Not much fatigue. Went to the beach for the morning. Severe migraine early afternoon partly from lack of food. Some cramping/tingling in feet, calves and hands
May 23- took Abby to the park, went to get my hair cut and to two stores.. Worn out and a migraine trying to come in evening. Hip didn’t hurt though! 
May 24- woke up early with bad migraine and very hungry. Had a snack and slept again. Migraine was still bad when I woke up, but early afternoon it has eased some. Strong fatigue today. 
May 25- woke up feeling better enough that I drove to Eugene in the afternoon. Hit with 8 migraine in the evening, and Soo hungry but ice, clonidine and food kept it from increasing. Took a short nap around 8pm. 
May 30 – fibropain flaring all week. In hands especially tonight, maybe because I worked in yard this am. Migraine flaring up to an 8 but then stopping. Fatigue hit hard yesterday, easing off today. 
–have been ‘seeing’ things in the corner of my eye. A bit of heart pounding. Fingers hurting/have to focus to straighten all the way. 
June 3- severe migraine out of the blue in evening. Vision gone in left eye.  Debilitating. Day 15. 
June 4- recovery day and keeping the pain down. 
June 5 – fighting migraine down. Hit hard in evening. To a level 9. IV today, glutathione push.
June 6- pretty good today. Upset stomach in late am and late evening. Clonidine keeping migraine down. Some fibropain. 
June 11-fatigue hit hard all day. Migraine tried to flare throughout the day. Took 2 naps. June 13- decent fatigue but was able to get up and putter around the house as well. Took a long nap. detox bath in the evening.

Have been struggling with bad fatigue for a week and a half. One vision loss migraine. 
June 26th iron and nutrient IV. 
June 29- best I’ve felt in a long while. Energy, mental clarity, 
July 1- day 15, fatigue and some mood issues. Needed a nap in the afternoon. Fibropain pretty strong in joints in late evening. But such an improvement from this time last month
July 19- back feeling a little better in am. Took Abby to the park. Afternoon, fatigue hit hard. Fibro flared in evening. Slept on ice pack all night
July 20- back still hurting (a week and a half now) mainly on left side. Possible kidney moved down again?

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* I’ve been on the DIM Detox  since the end of May and I have slowly but steadily seen an improvement in my mid-month flaring like we were hoping! I did have to cut back to 1/day after increasing to 2/day and having a flare but it’s helping!!!

Migraine: These have slowly decreased from May to end of July. I haven’t had a ‘nuclear migraine’ (aka, vision loss/debilitating) since beginning of June. They are still daily, of course – finish?

Sleep: This hasn’t changed much other than, with the fatigue, I’m needing more naps. Not every day, thankfully, but a lot of times when I do nap, it’s a few hours before I wake up. Which then makes it hard to get to bed before midnight… I am glad that I still don’t need melatonin to get to sleep like I did for so long!

Memory/Brain Fog:  This was a big enough of a struggle that I started taking Neuroflam  (thankfully I can get it for about $30 cheaper than this amazon price). To experiment, I have been off of it for a few weeks…and I think it really was helping. OY. I was hoping to save that money but anything that helps with mental clarity is worth it. I’ve been so foggy that sitting down and writing (either on here or on my book) has been such a trial that I just haven’t done it. Sadly.

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It took at least half an hour to get the needle in to a good vein this time. Second try with the Iron push. Verdict? Doesn’t kick the fatigue.

Vision: Since the beginning of June, I haven’t had full vision loss but I have had some minor sparkles, spots or blurriness. I have been able to attribute them to exhaustion or hunger. When they have been tied to the oncoming of a severe migraine, I’ve been able to halt it from fully forming.

Fibromyalgia: Ahhh, joint aches. Self-cramping. Sporadic tingling. Pain that is trying to claw its way out of my body.  This has increased over the months and I’m thinking that it’s due to the fact that I’ve been having cane sugar occasionally. As well as starch. I am okay with never feeling the need to move just because the pain is so bad.

TMJ: This is one thing that has eased off and stayed down, mostly. My teeth will still ache and my jaw is almost always tender to the touch. It doesn’t pop too often.

Fatigue: This has been a doozy for a while now. My last two IV’s, we’ve gone without the glutathione and done Iron and nutrients but it’s not kicking the fatigue like the glutathione. OY.

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Weight Loss: I was doing good on this for about a month and then…I stopped working out and more lax on what I would eat. I’ve started working out again though so I’m hopeful I can start losing some again!

Mood: Overall, this has been good- even- calm. A few times a month (?) it goes more wacky than it normally would.

Bladder: since May, I haven’t had any other …strange behaviors in this quarter.

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I follow Aubrey on Instagram and just had to share this bit of humor.

If you want more frequent updates on my health journey – as well as Abby adventures, crochet projects and whatnot – follow me on Instagram!

*Disclaimer: I will say though, that I tend to share more…. real-life photos there than I do here. I only share a portion of them here on SGL. I have gotten some comments on my ‘death/zombie’ photos and such – if you don’t want to see pictures of someone in chronic, debilitating pain, I suggest you don’t follow me on IG. or Facebook, heh. I know it can be hard to see and read about, but this is my life and the life that so very many people are living. We didn’t ask for this. If you don’t like it, and there’s nothing wrong with that, please don’t make critical comments about our hard days – even if you mean them in jest. They still wound us. I appreciate each one of you that follows my blog, IG or Facebook. 

I caught Abby being a goof the other morning, here it is, just to make you smile,

Health Update April/May 2018

8 May

Once again, I am so glad I do these updates! It helps so much in keeping track of where I’ve been – and where I am. While I have been frustrated lately on just how expensive all my treatment is – how come insurance just won’t cover lyme treatments?! – I have to admit that it is all worth it. Out of curiosity, I brought up last year’s update  and the difference is striking. I don’t take melatonin or theanine to sleep anymore – ever! While my fibromyalgia is still painful, I can crochet pretty much as long as I want and it doesn’t get to the point of making me cry/scream. I no longer have disassociation. I am able to keep up with housework better overall. The things that I started taking/increased are all some of my favorites now – St. John’s Wort, Butterbur/Petadolex, iron supplement, etc. I have decreased the ceanothus to once a week though because I react to it so strongly.

 

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Overall Health:  It’s a bit tricky to know how to summarize… The fatigue, fibro and migraines just seemed to hit and not want to ease for several weeks. Going to IV and bodywork didn’t help as much as they normally do. But the last few (?) weeks, I have noticed a bit of an improvement. Often, I see it in individual days rather than an increase over several days…

Mar 22- fatigue and migraine today. Crashing in evening with fibropain and migraine. Two or three clonidine. 
Seem to flare on days 15 and 22
Mar 24 – fuzzy brain and fatigue. Migraine hard to calm down throughout the day. 
April 4th – IV (push, not drip) yesterday. Woke up with a headache. Took 2 clonidine during the day to keep it down from a bad migraine. Felt pretty good otherwise. Had energy and ability to focus. Left calf tensed up quite a bit this evening – migraine flaring
April 5th – severe fatigue today. Migraine off and on. Hard time focusing. Left calf tight and foot tingling late evening. Three clonidine today
April 8th- a little fuzzy brained all weekend. Fatigue too. Some cramping. 
April 9- took one drop clonidine am. Mega fatigue hit late morning. Bad migraine early afternoon and most of rest of day. Started SAT.
April 13- increased SAT to 2/day. Some fatigue and migraine
April 16- bodywork Dr. 
April 17- calves cramping. Some fatigue. Nightmares
April 18- foggy brain and fatigue. Calves still cramping. Increased SAT to 3/day
Have mostly forgotten to take daily liver the past week. Haven’t noticed any difference? Fatigue has eased although it is still present. Brain fog is the same. Was busier this past week odd than have been in a while and have not CRASHED like I thought I would. Sensitive to smells and loud noises.
April 23rd- started Mineral complex again. Migraine off and on all day. Energy even though I’ve been tired and took two naps. Was a productive day.
April 24- was tired but not overwhelming. Took one nap, maybe two. Fibropain flaring in late evening, hip hurting too, going to bed a little early, hoping to sleep it away
April 26- fatigue hit today, even more so in the evening. Was hard to even eat dinner. Taking iron supplement didn’t help, like it normally does. Was also hungrier than normal. Front of neck has hurt a lot the past few days. Increase Mineral Complex to 2/day
April 28 – woke up feeling pretty good, fatigue eased. Front of neck still hurt but eased as day progressed. Took Abby to the park with start of migraine but eased by evening. Went to movie, took 3 clonidine before and during. Didn’t crash like I expected to afterward. 
April 29- woke up feeling even better today, still with some fatigue. No clonidine so far. April 30 – increase Complete Mineral Complex to 3/day.                                                           May 4th – start Molybdenum

Migraines: While I haven’t had any level 10’s (and just a few times of a hint of my vision going), these have been bad. And have often not responded to anything I do to get them down. And then other days, one clonidine is all I need. Very back and forth.

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Sleep: I am able to sleep longer than normal – up to 8 hours some nights! It’s been so nice. But. I have been waking up more often to use the bathroom.

Memory/Brain Fog: this has increased, frustratingly. Quite often, I won’t realize how bad it is until I leave the house.

Vision: Like I mentioned above, I had a few times of vision loss. But it was very minimal – the sparklers in my left eye that is the precursor to it, and then nothing else.

Fibromyalgia: This is just bad enough to be obnoxious but not debilitating. My left calf is always tense/hurting. My joints ache frequently and have had some random stabbing pain in my palms or base of feet.

TMJ: The front of my neck has HURT so much these past weeks. Even going to the bodywork doctor didn’t help it like it normally does. My jaw isn’t popping quite as much but my teeth still ache frequently.

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Fatigue: This has eased….most days, thank goodness. I do think the H2PLX has helped a lot. I tried going off my iron supplement and while I didn’t think at first there was any difference, there was. (it got to the point that I’d fall asleep mid-project…or almost fall asleep in the checkout line at the grocery store.) I now am taking it most every day again.

Weight Loss: I have been able to lose a tiny bit!

Mood: This has calmed back down again and I am so very thankful for that.

Bladder: Ahhhh, this one. This one has me a bit baffled. All of a sudden last week, I was needing to use the bathroom about every 10 minutes. And I’d wake up about 5 times a night. GAH. I don’t know why either. Thankfully it’s calmed down but it’s still more…active than it should be.

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~ Check out It’s the Lyme Life – may 2017 and Encouragement for living with Chronic Illness (the start of a 4- part series) for more!

 

 

Health Update Feb/Mar 2018

22 Mar

With it raining outside, corned beef in the crock pot, roasted veggies in the oven and the ingredients for veggie burgers prepped, I’m feeling accomplished – and worn out – this morning. But I’m finding that if I just rest for about an hour, I’m typically ready to get back up and do some more things. Like make the veggie burgers. And vacuum.  But just learning that I can replenish my energy supply, has made such a difference on my attitude – and in what I can realistically accomplish in one day. Of course, there are many days where I am relegated to the couch. And on those days, I seem to be fine with it – read : my brain is so fuzzy that I don’t care where I am as long as I don’t have to hold myself up. Slow progress is progress. And coming to terms with where I am physically does a whole lot for me mentally.

 

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Overall Health: Still able to see improvement but fatigue and fibromyalgia have been flaring this month. A tad bit of mood struggles.

Feb 20- flaring fibromyalgia. Bad fatigue. Migraine kicked up early afternoon. Upset stomach mid evening for no apparent reason. This has been going on for a week ish, off and on 
Feb 22 woke up with migraine from the night before. Went away by mid morning. Felt decent most of the day. Came back early evening to a sharp 7. Took one clonidine. 
Feb 23- migraine kicked up quickly to an 8- neck and shoulders stiff, teeth aching, early afternoon. Two clonidine. Finally eased. Got really tired after making dinner. Calves very tight in evening. 
Feb 29 – some fatigue, upset stomach because I ate some coconut ice cream last night. IV today. Still feeling pretty decent the past few days, even though cycle is coming. Have been able to get multiple things done each day. 
Mar 2 – fatigue. Achy. Fibropain flaring a bit. If I wiggle my toes, a… Tingly (?) Feeling runs up my left calf. Have been overly hungry this evening. Took 3 clonidine again today. 
Mar 5- . Felt decent all day till after a bath. Migraine hit pretty hard and left arm started hurting bad.
Mar 6- woke up with migraine and arm still hurting. Had to sleep with an ice pack all night in my arm, tender to the touch, very achy. 
Mar 7 – woke up with fatigue and migraine but has eased as the day went on. 
Mar 8 – did better today overall until mid evening. Then crashed- migraine, fibropain, back pain. Took clonidine. Then Advil (for my back) a while later. Then fibronol, magnesium, feverfew. So tired but such pain
Mar 9- crashed pretty bad this evening. Was rough today but not awful. Tonight, fibropain, migraine, jaw is super tight and painful. Augh
Mar 11 – jaw hurt and popped all day. Fatigue was less. Migraine off and on all day. Crashed in evening, left calf is very tight making from my toes to hip ache, teeth are throbbing, migraine pulsing. Make. It. Stop.
Mar 15- saw Dr vogel today finally. Whole left side tense and hurting, right side was pretty upset too. Worked on my right kidney a bit as well. Had migraine and fatigue today, nap only helped a little. Brain fuzzy the past few days, mood a little off. 
Mar 19- 20 a bit brain foggy and fatigue but able to do things. Crashed in the evenings significantly.

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Migraines: While these have increased in severity again I am still having days with minimal/none.

Sleep: This has stayed the same, where I’m getting 7 hours a night (almost to the minute). I wake up about 2 times a night. I’m not needing many naps during the day but have mostly been able to when I need them. I did sleep almost 9 hours last weekend though.

Memory: haven’t noticed any change

Vision: Other than noticing they are blurry when I’m tired – especially tired and not wearing my glasses – my vision has been great

Fibromyalgia: This has flared just enough to be obnoxious but not debilitating. My left calf is always tense/hurting. My joints ache frequently and have had some random stabbing pain in my palms or base of feet.

TMJ: My jaw has been popping a lot along with my teeth aching frequently.

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Fatigue: This has flared enough that it’s kept me down on the couch at least half a day several times this month. I have started taking my H2PLX at lunch and dinner to see if it helps with the evening burn-out and I think it is, to a degree. I’m now thinking of increasing to 3 a day.

Weight Loss: GAH. I’ m trying not to be frustrated by this – I have gained. Even though I have been relatively strict on my eating (allowing some starch from time to time and a bit of ‘dairy’ every few days), I didn’t expect that to throw my plan of losing 5 lbs by my birthday so off track.

Mood:  this has been a bit off again, but not terrible

Bladder: the same as last month -> This has eased a bit I think. It’s at least to the point of my normal (which still isn’t where it needs to be)

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~Laura

Health Update Jan/Feb 2018

21 Feb

If you follow me on Instagram, you know a little bit of what this update is going to say since I shared some of this last week. I’ll admit that I kept putting off writing this post. I’ve found it hard to want to share – which feels a little strange but there’s something scary about saying “I’m feeling some better!” I feel the weight of expectation landing squarely on my shoulders. Expectation that I won’t have any more set backs. Expectation that I’ll soon be back to full health. Expectation…expectation… Perhaps it’s just all in my mind, but they have held me back. So, I’m facing them and finally writing this post because I NEED to. I need to document this. fightinglymemigraines

 

Overall Health: One word: improvement. Do you know how scary that word is to type?  I’m noticing I’m able to do things that I wouldn’t have months ago. Fatigue is still a big struggle. Focusing on one task has been tricky.

 

January 16-23 – all symptoms started easing. Needing naps occasionally- cut back on dosage of dmsa which helped with fatigue a lot. Only mild flaring in evenings now, including the restless fibropain. Still struggles with mood after increasing xcht to 3/day. Started h2plx on the 20th. Am avoiding fruit in the am, since the 20th to see if I have any changes in how I feel. Increased B2 to 2/day on the 23rd.
25th – woke up tired and decent fatigue but wasn’t couch bound. Migraine didn’t kick in till around 130pm. 
1-26 felt good today. Did a bunch of cleaning and took Abby to the park. One? Two? Clonidine. Increased horse chestnut to 2/day till day 28.
1-27 upset stomach all day but felt good despite that, took one clonidine late afternoon. Took Abby to the park. Quick grocery store trip ( used a basket instead of a cart!), Worked on book. 
1-28 feel good but so tired- couldn’t nap so took Abby on a walk.  
1-29 felt good again, took Abby to the park. Migraine in afternoon, mostly kept down with clonidine. Some minor brain fog. Increased h2plx to 2/day
1-30 IV. Cycle started. Fatigue but still feel decent. Took Abby on a walk in am. 
2-7 been feeling pretty well the past week. Been able to do quite a bit. Think I overdid it today though – with a lack of veggies, causing some cramping and my left calf is very tight. Brain fog has been increasing. Not feeling able to handle decisions/lots of stuff going on around me. This is my last week of chelation!! 
2-9 fatigue has followed me all week – thanks in part to the chelation. Hip has been hurting the last two nights. Some minor fibropain in my left hand and left calf. Still avoiding fruit in the am as I’ve noticed that I am not as hungry throughout the day. Have even not been hungry for some meals this past few weeks.
2-15 have been doing well this past week. A bit of migraine and fibromyalgia flare up, but it wasn’t bad. Sleeping better and sometimes longer.  Energy. More mental clarity. Hip has been hurting lately. Jaw pops/hurts a lot

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Migraines: These have decreased – yay! There have been a few days that I haven’t taken any clonidine – and several where I just needed one.

Sleep: This has stayed the same – with maybe some slight improvement? –  where I’m getting 7 hours a night (almost to the minute). I wake up about 2 times a night. I’m not needing as many naps during the day – but often even when I do, I can’t fall asleep.

Memory/Disassociation: I’m starting to think I can take the disassociation aspect off of this list! Memory has improved slightly (?)

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“and then, one day, you see a spark of your old self again.”

Vision: No visual auras at all this month. My eyes have been more blurry than normal when I’m tired lately.

Fibromyalgia: I can’t believe how much this has eased. My left calf still is tense most days. I’ve been able to crochet/ write just about as much as I want. When it does increase, it’s more in my joints – wrists, elbows, knees and ankles.

TMJ: It’s been popping a lot along with my teeth aching the past few weeks. I’ve had to push out my bodywork appointment almost two weeks and I am sure that’s a big part of this.

Fatigue: This eased dramatically once I cut back (and then finished) my chelation dosage. It’s still strong though, to where it is the main symptom I have day to day.

Weight Loss: I’ve lost almost all that I had gained in Nov/Dec. I have been able to get out and walk Abby a lot more these past few weeks.

Mood: Yay for mood consistency again!

Bladder: This has eased a bit I think. It’s at least to the point of my normal (which still isn’t where it needs to be)

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All in all, I can’t quite believe the progress I’ve seen this past month. I’m finding myself saying ‘ I couldn’t have done ________ a few months ago’, quite a bit! I am still, of course, ill – fatigue holds me back daily, mental clarity is still something I lack often, etc. I just read through January 2017‘s update and can’t believe how far I’ve come in a year.

 

~Laura

Health Update Sept/Oct 2017

12 Oct

Whew, finally getting this written! I’m gonna give myself a little plug here before I get started.

If you want more consistent updates on how I’m doing, follow me over on Instagram! I’m on there regularly, sharing how I’m doing with dosage increases, doctor visits and whatever else hits me as I fight to get better! (plus, there’s super cute puppy pictures too)

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Overall Health: While fatigue has been less INTENSE, it is still very present, making it one of my main struggles of the month. Dealing with reaction to Iberogast. Not getting good/enough sleep. Bladder issues.

9-12 IV today. Brain fog but ‘compelled to DO’ today. Drove down to Bend on my own! Days away from cycle
9-14 fatigue day. Migraine kicked up. Bit of brain fog. 
9-15 worse fatigue today. Level 9 migraine in evening. 
9-19 upped Iberogast to 2 drops/day. Felt bad in afternoon and awful in evening. Migraine. Jaw. Achy. Etc. 
9-20 same reaction this aft at yest. But not quite as intense perhaps? 
9-22 putting Iberogast in warm water rather than hot tea. Seeing if this helps my reaction/detox to it. Yesterday’s fatigue was intense. Back hurt in evening
9-27 aft. sparkly vision. Severe migraine and fatigue rest of day
9-28 migraine and fatigue hit in afternoon
10-1 fatigue lingered today, able to get out though. Napped in afternoon. Migraine kept down with 2 clonidine. Upped Iberogast to 4drops/day in evening
10-3 IV today. Added poly mba at the end, along with glutathione. 
10-4 woke up achy and tired but had a burst of energy rest of morning. Migraine kicking in early afternoon. Severe migraine and bad fibromyalgia in evening. Rough night.
10-5 woke up rough and weak. 
10-6 woke up pretty good. Tired but ended up with a lot of energy most of the day, despite brain fog. Migraine and fibropain kicking in mid evening. Can’t seem to stop it. 

10-9 upped Iberogast to 5 drops/day
10-10 fatigue and just feeling overall awful this am. Want to get things done but just can’t…. So tired. Woke up with migraine. After a few hrs was able to get up and DO. migraine flared off and on all day. Only flared a bit in evening.

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Migraines: I have done better keeping track of these on my migraine app. Still a little wonky so I can’t use all of the feedback from it but here are a few. These have been averaging at a level 9. Aura and Prodrome are : headache, muscle stiffness and tingling in head. Triggers seem to be: body aches, interrupted sleep and lack of sleep. Top 3 symptoms are neck pain, fatigue and jaw pain. They typically start in the temples, eyes, jaw and base of skull. Most days I can get the pain down to where I can function – and get things done.

~ an ice pack has been my go-to lately. laying on it, or having it on my forehead helps so much.

 

Sleep: This has been a big struggle for me. Falling and staying asleep is so hard. I always sleep with my heating pad under my neck.

Memory/Disassociation: At times I feel like my memory is getting better but I don’t think it is. (no joke intended there, hehe) I will say that I have’t dealt with disassociation this month. Over-stimulation, yes. Frequently.

Vision: This has only happened once this month. I am so relieved about this!

Fibromyalgia: It has reached drive-me-insane level a few times this month. Augh. My joints regularly hurt – especially my elbows. And that often spreads tingles to my pinkies and ring fingers. It is just about guaranteed to happen if I’m holding something (phone, book, crochet, steering wheel etc) for a long time. (this has improved a bit from last month!) Ice, advil and light massaging help. The self-cramping that my left calf does and the ripples of pain that shoot along the bottoms of my feet still happen. But my hands aren’t self-cramping as bad although I do have to stretch my fingers out often because they just HURT.

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~Pain and anxiety go hand in hand.~ The last few days I’ve felt a restlessness to be HEALTHY, to be WHOLE. To be past this struggle. I feel as if parts of me are dying, withering away under all of this stress, physically and emotionally. I’m impatient to move on with my life. But I remind myself that my main goal needs to be to keep my eyes on Him – the One who is my Refuge and Strength. No matter what earthly trial I am in, He alone is my Salvation, my Rock. As long as I keep my eyes on Him and ask that my will ever is aligned with His, I will have lived a good and full life.

TMJ – This has been popping/hurting a lot still and I’m thinking it’s because I haven’t been to the bodywork dr in months. My teeth ache quite frequently from the stress of me clenching/grinding them at night.

Fatigue: As I said above, this is one of my main complaints from this month. The deep-seated fatigue that just aches and drags me down. I still am compelled to get up and DO things but sometimes the two opposites are at war with each other. Some mornings I am stuck on the couch but then can get up in the afternoon. I want to make a distinction – before it would be so bad that it was hard for me to stay upright in a chair, and I mean, really hard.  Now though, while it is still difficult, I rarely am struggling to stay in it rather than feeling like a cartoon where the character just melts off the seat into a puddle. So, while the fatigue is still bad, it’s not where it used to be.

Weight Loss: I have come out even this month – losing and then gaining it back. I’m a little bit frustrated but I have been less strict on my diet, so….. (by that I mean that I’ve had starch here and there)

Mood: This has improved…sort of. My inward negativity goes in waves, but it’s better than it being constant. I’m sure that being able to get things done around the house helps with this.

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IV time again – Hallelujah! Lovely nutrients with gluithione at the end. We’re also going to try a bit of poly (can’t remember the full name right now) at the end as well to see how I do with it. Was able to have a good talk with the Dr about next possible steps, with some suggestions for tests before the end of the year. Brain fog and fatigue are hitting hard today.

Bladder: This is the other main struggle this month. I can’t get back to how my digestion/bladder were a few months ago. (is it really that long ago?) Even when I was cutting out ALL processed and starch. I am waking up typically 3 times a night to go to the bathroom, even when I don’t really need to.

~I wanted to do a quick update of my progress from this time last year. I’ll try to keep it short. I still struggle with many of these same symptoms as well as have added quite a few. (oh joy). But I have more energy overall. And we’ve figured out more of what’s going on with my body to combat it!

What I’m currently taking:

1 each day of  A, B complex, Calcium, Chaste Tree Berry

2 each day of Ashwagandha, B2, Berberine, Butterbur, D3, E, Feverfew, Fibronol, Magnesium, Xiao Chai Hu Tang, Noni Fruit

3 a day St. John’s Wort

1 drop Ceanothus one day a week. 5 drops a day Iberogast (slowly upping)

on Days 15-28, 1 Horse Chestnut Extract and 2 Chaste Tree Berry

Clonidine – prescription pain pills. Averaging 2 a day

Gelsimium, Pulsatilla, Belladonna, phosphorus and one more… – tincture in water that I take when I need relief

essential oils

~Several of these I need to increase, but I’m focusing solely on the Iberogast right now.

I know this was long this month but I wanted to get it all in!

How have you been this month? Do you have any questions for me about what I’m taking/doing? Ask away!

~Laura

Health Update Aug/Sept 2017

12 Sep

I can’t believe it’s really time to do another health update but this is the first one in a long while that I’m excited to share! I’ve seen baby steps of forward movement in this long healing journey of mine. I will probably end up steps back again in the weeks to come but for now I’m relishing the mini victories. One of them being that I have been just well enough that I’m planning on making the 3 hr drive to visit family and meet my newest nephew! This is HUGE for me, and although there’s a decent level of anxiety about actually being able to do it – I cannot wait any longer to meet little Joseph. ( This little guy makes 18 (!!) nieces and nephews).

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Overall Health: I feel like I’ve had extremes this month. I’m either feeling really well or really awful. I am able to see some improvement, though vision loss is a regular thing now.

Dr. Thoughts: She is thinking that I might have SIBO (small intestine bacteria overgrowth) so I am currently taking berberine and iberogast for it. She knows of a new test that is being developed for Lyme that I might be able to have done for free as part of the… what’s it called? Research? (hello Lyme brain right in the middle of a post…) Which would be so great to try and get even more answers.

8-16 started bacteriaphage, awful nausea. 
8-17 woke up with level 8 migraine. Didn’t go down much all day. Fatigue. Not as much nausea from phage
8-18 feel pretty good today. Getting stuff done around the house even. 
8-21 some nausea this am. A little tired but doing good! Yesterday was last day of bacteriophage. 
8-22 IV today. Tired but did good til evening, as usual. Migraine flared. 
8-23 fatigue in am, then mild nausea as well in the afternoon. Ears sensitive. 
8-24 upped lightning pearls to 3/day
8-26 last few days, fibropain has started flaring. 
8-27 slight spasms of fibropain. Pinky and ring fingers been tingly last few days. started berberine. 
8-30 past few days, teeth have been hurting. Jaw worse than normal. Today fibropain in elbows and wrists. Pinky and ring finger on left hand have been tingling all day. Most likely from sanding the other day. Fatigue and achy stronger than it’s been. 
8-31 vision blurry and sparkly early afternoon. Slept 2hrs. Migraine flared to a 9 in evening. Weak. Achy. Migraine down to an 8 now. Day 14.
9-2 feels like another vision loss day coming… 
9-4 started iberogast. 9 drops/day. 
9-5 rough day. Fought off losing vision but migraine high and body weak.                                 9- 9 dropped iberogast down to 1 drop/day, reacting too strongly to it. mild tingling and cramping in same places as on the 30th. 

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Migraines:  There has been some improvement. Mostly during the day. I’m able to -at the least- keep the level down, more easily these days. They still flare up intensely in the evenings. As well as if I’m around anything LOUD or overly BRIGHT (making it difficult to sit through service or a movie, or spend much time in any sort of store…)

~I am doing better keeping track of my migraine on the app on my phone, but not good enough to be able to use the information from it. I miss having that info, so I’m really trying to remember to take the time to do it.

Sleep: I’m still cycling Theanine and Melatonin most nights but even with them, I’m waking up several times and only asleep for just about 7 hours.

Memory/Disassociation: I am seeing sporadic improvement in getting over-stimulated, and not disassociating quite as often although it’s still frequent. I find that I am more and more reluctant to leave my house because of it. I’m not sure if there’s been any change in my memory. Oy.

Vision: I now partially lose – or almost lose- the vision in my left eye about twice a week. Often I am able to keep the following level 10 migraine to a short one, or avoid it altogether. While I’m thankful for that, it’s still very frustrating to have this vision issue so frequent. The feeling that comes with it is awful and the fear/anxiety is terrible.

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Nutrient IV and a great read – Jane Eyre

Dizziness: I almost feel like I could take this one off the list for now. I don’t get dizzy very often anymore

Fibromyalgia: For a second month in a row, the drive-me-insane level of pain hasn’t come. But it’s been just under that several times — where i’m bouncing my leg or such because it hurts too bad to be completely still but it hurts too bad to get off the couch and actually move. Oof da. My joints regularly hurt – especially my elbows. And that often spreads tingles to my pinkies and ring fingers. It is just about guaranteed to happen if I’m holding something (phone, book, crochet, steering wheel etc) for a few minutes or longer. Ice, advil and light massaging help. My hands still curl up and feel as if my fingers are tensing on the inside – as well as the self-cramping that my left calf does and the ripples of pain that shoot along the bottoms of my feet.

TMJ – This has been popping/hurting more frequently again and I’m really thinking it’s because I haven’t been to the bodywork dr in months. My teeth ache quite frequently from the stress of me clenching/grinding them at night.

Fatigue: I’ve noticed something interesting this past month – Most mornings I am almost…compelled to get up and DO. Clean. Take the dogs to the park. Prep dinner. etc. I just have to be UP and doing something. Even when I know I need to stop and relax, its like I can’t… and I’m not sure why. I haven’t had a lot of awful fatigue, it’s been mostly a level 6 on a scale of 1 -10.

Weight loss: I have been a little bit stricter this month on what I eat, which means I’ve lost about 2 lbs this month. I’m pleased with that because it’s really hard for me to lose weight.

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I fit into these slacks for the first time in months!

Mood: I don’t feel that this has changed much. I still get frustrated easily, and have more negative thoughts than normal.

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Bladder: I just realized that I haven’t mentioned the fact that I tried a new 5-day treatment specifically for the Ecoli strain in my gut – it was bacteriophage. (I mentioned this in my Instagram). For that week-ish, my digestion was better, as well as any bm’s. (i’m trying not to be too tmi here, but digestion issues are common in those dealing with Lyme). Since then, it’s been a bit more touch-and-go, which is frustrating.

Next month I think I’ll do an update of everything I’m taking, as well as compare to where I  was this time last year. (It’s been just over a year since I got a diagnosis). But for now, I’ll close with a question:

Are you seeing any forward movement in your dreams? (be they health, career, hobby, etc related)? 

~Laura

Also, Abby Pond turned two at the beginning of the month and (thanks to google photos) I made this video!

Health Update : July/Aug 2017

15 Aug

It’s interesting to go through the past few health updates each time I write a new one to see how I’ve progressed/regressed. It is so easy to just see the mountain you’re climbing that you forget how far you’ve already climbed! The struggle with this battle is that there’s dips and valleys and straight-up peaks that I’ve got to get through and over. Some days I don’t feel up for the challenge but right now, I’m ready for it. I will one day be healthy enough to have the homestead I dream of. I will.

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Overall Health: I have had some LOW lows and some pretty good highs this past four weeks. But, the lows don’t seem to be lasting quite as long as they used to. I even have gotten out for some fun a few weekends.

Notes: 7-7 teeth are aching. migraine. Fatigue all day. Need to take a bath but it’s just too much. Fibropain is kicking up late in evening
7-8 fibropain is in arms, not severe just.. There. Migraine trying to kick in. Tired but can’t sleep
7-9 fatigue and migraine all day. fibromyalgia flaring bad this evening can’t sleep
7-13 fatigue not quite as intense. Fibropain flared in left hand and in calves. Migraine came in evening. 
7-18 slight pain over heart. Fatigue. Migraine trying to kick up -able to be out and about for @6hrs. Back and feet hurt after
7-19 started liver ‘pill’ trial. Went out for a few hrs, migraine kicking up early afternoon. Fatigue and migraine even after 2hr nap. 
7-21 woke up with bad fatigue and migraine. Had to stay home all day. Took two naps, over an HR each, didn’t help with fatigue. Going to bed with level 8 migraine and exhausted. Some fibropain today too. Days away from monthly
7-23 (yesterday i felt pretty good) migraine, nausea and fatigue today. Took a 2 hr nap. Woke up dehydrated, as usual. Brain foggy. 
7-24 afternoon/evening severe (level 9?) migraine. Fibropain flared but not severe. 
7-26 level 10 migraine. Vision was funny off and on all day. Got sparkles in left eye around 4pm. 
7-27 starting fibronol again
8-1 IV today. Woke up shaky, weak and migraine. Severe migraine in evening
8-2 woke up with migraine. Got it calmed enough to sand chair for half an hour
8-3 upped fibronol to 2a day
8-5 another vision loss migraine. Pain didn’t stay severe as long. Nausea. (had gone to see movie in a theatre)
8-7 started Lightning Pearls. Felt pretty good today, migraine kicked up early aft.

8-12/13 felt good overall. so days 21/22 of cycle. still took a few clonidine each day

8-14 worked out for half an hr. upped lighting pearls to 2 a day.

We added glutathione to the end of my IV this last time. The IV’s help so much in reducing my symptoms that I’m excited to add more helps to them.

Sleep: I ran out of Theanine so I was taking melatonin almost every night to help me get to sleep and boy, oh boy, that’s never a good idea. I finally figured that even with how poorly I sleep on my own, at least I wouldn’t be having the nightmares that regular melatonin brings. Thankfully my new bottle of Theanine arrived the other day

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my ‘you don’t always have to be thankful it’s not worse’ face

Memory/Disassociation : These are both unchanged I believe. Although this past Sunday we were out and about all morning and I did very well.

Vision: Along with getting level 10 migraines more frequently, my vision has been ….funky. When those severe ones hit, I’ll lose the sight in my left eye. Thankfully, we have figured out the treatment to get the pain down quickly (or even avoid the severity altogether) as I used to lose sight for half an hr. And then the pain would swoop in about 20 minutes later and last HOURS. So I’m glad we’ve figured out part of it. But now I’m noticing just… irregularities with my sight sometimes. Trying to read – computer or printed page – can be nauseating and the light/words seem to move.

Dizziness:  This has only been present a few times

Fibromyalgia: While I will feel discomfort/tenseness in my calves and writsts/arms, and occasionally shooting pains, the drive-me-insane levels haven’t come back this month. I am curious if this is the fibronol doing its thing. Ice and advil and heat are still my friends for this

Fatigue: This has been back and forth. It will knock me out flat for days at a time and then be on the back burner. I’ve noticed that sometimes getting up and doing something for a few minutes helps ease it

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I now need this shirt

Weight Loss: I haven’t been as consistently strict on my eating this past four weeks which means I haven’t done as well at losing weight.

Mood: Still no major mood swings but it’s still been a struggle. Getting frustrated easily, or just having negative thoughts a lot would throw me all off balance. It has been better the past several days though

Bladder: This had been marginally better but not anymore.

~In an effort to focus on the things that I can do, here’s a few things that I’m currently thankful for : I’m able to make dinner almost every night. I’m now able to drive myself to my doctor appointments. I’m also able to run errands on my own. My attention span has been a little bit better.

~On the flip side, little irritants : the floaters in my eyes lately are driving me crazy. my hands instinctively curl up/tense, which hurts. If I sleep at all without my night guard, I pay for it. severely.

I feel like we’ve made a few strides forward this month and I’m just praying it continues

How have you been this month? 

~Laura

 

 

 

Health Update : June 2017

14 Jul

Hello everyone!

I pulled up my migraine app to write the stats down, all the while thinking that I haven’t been keeping very good track lately when this confirmed it : 2 attacks the past month, my average attack duration is —wait for it…… 145 hours and 35 minutes. (coughcough) so I’m gonna skip this entire section of update because it’s all faulty.

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Overall Health: the first three weeks of June were terrible. Straight up terrible. But! I also started getting nutrient IV’s and they seem to help so much. I feel like we are starting to figure some stuff out about this poor body. The last week-odd was so much better – all my symptoms calmed down SO much. Although disassociation is still a problem when I’m out and about.

Notes : 5-26 upped xcht to 2/day . Nauseous. Exhausted. Migraine kicks up then recedes on its own. Feeling a bit snippy and lonely today. Waiting to hear back from Dr about upping ceanothus or starting fibrobol.
5-28 starting fibronol, 1/day. Haven’t heard back from Dr, decided to just do it.
5-30 fibropain has been flaring for the past few days bad. Hard time getting it to ease. Trying the white Willow forte for it instead of Advil.
6-1 appt with Dr v today. Left side feels better now. Also started cycle early this am. Pretty miserable all day. Exhausted.  Migraine kicking my butt. Off of fibronol- was causing unexplained bruising.
6-2 first IV today
6-12 migraine not staying down today. Fibropain is starting to flare in late afternoon. Hard time focusing on anything for more than a few minutes. Really wanting to start the detox, hoping to get to the produce store tomorrow so I can. Migraine flared to a 10 in evening. Debilitating. Awful. Body was a heavy weight that I couldn’t move. Tears. Fell asleep around 8pm and slept off and on till the next am.
6-14 day two of recovery. Able to do dishes this morning but exhausted and achy now
6-16 still can’t get rid of this migraine and fatigue. It’s sticking around an 8. Evenings are still rough but seem to be getting easier as they go on. Nothing seems to ease the migraines much
6-20 2nd IV today:
Potassium
B complex (5, 6 a and 12 as well)
Vit C
Calcium
Magnesium
Saline
Fighting a cold as well. Been better this past week-ish. Fibropain has diminished -except for shoots of pain. Migraines responding to treatment better. Highest an 8. Fatigue still awful

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morning dose

*It wasn’t the fibronol that was causing unexplained bruising. I have since started back up on the fibronol because the bruising is still happening. I also realized that the Ceanothus was causing some serious herxing so I am going to start taking it only one drop a week.

Sleep: Still rotating Theanine and Melatonin in order to fall asleep. Having a hard time with falling – and staying – asleep again. Especially when the fibromyalgia kicks in.

Memory/Disassociation: Like I mentioned above, I’ve noticed that disassociation kicks in when I go out in public. I suppose I could be having it here at home too but just don’t realize it. hmmm. Anyway, memory might be improving a little.

Vision: I’ve started getting ‘floater’s in my vision a bit which my dr says can be a vitamin k issue (I think this is right, it goes along with some other problems I’ve been having)

Dizziness: Thankfully, this has stayed mostly calm – but not completely

Fibromyalgia: This seems to flare for a few weeks and then calm down. Right now I’m in the  it’s-coming-back-soon stage. It definitely reached higher intensities, especially during my level-10 migraines. Advil, heat and ice seem to be the only things that help.

Fatigue: this was consistently bad the first three weeks. It eased the last week odd but has since come back with a vengeance.

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Weight Loss : Since I cut processed sugar out and reduced any starches (beginning of May) I’ve lost a total of 5 lbs. I’m excited about this because it’s been steadily – slowly- dropping and any attempts before to lose weight didn’t work. As long as I stay strict like this, I think the weight will continue to drop. (it’s funny because it’s typically 0.8lbs a week.)

Mood: I’ve been good on this and yet not… The mood swings and major struggles haven’t come back but I’ve struggled with getting frustrated at the downward swing of my heath.

Bladder: I haven’t noticed any changes in this area

 

 

~ I am trying not to worry too much about the fact that I’ve started getting level-10 migraines again. Trying. Because, honestly, it’s freaking me out.

~ It would be wonderful if I could go in regular for acupuncture and bodywork. And I really want to try the infrared sauna as well as the sensory deprivation room (because, I just couldn’t do the ‘tank’ – hello claustrophobia). There are a few other treatments that I’ve looked into that I would like to try but due to money – and insurance not covering anything I need for Lyme treatment – I just can’t. It has been a big point of frustration for me this month.

 

~I am going to start looking into getting disability which completely overwhelms me just thinking about it. If anyone has any tips or suggestions, I’d absolutely love to hear them!

~Laura

I am on Instagram where I update/share how I am doing pretty regular if you want to check it out

 

Health Update for May 2017

26 May

Happy end-of-May dear readers! I’m typing this out on my back porch with Lady laying just inside the open door and Abby running back and forth between me and the bone in the yard and OH in the living room. It’s a good evening so far.

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Migraine app notes: I had 10 attack days lasting average of 68 hours. I had 2 attack free days. I took 56 clonidine ( 4 more than last month) They happened 50% of the time from 12 pm to 6 pm. Average pain is 7.5, which is pretty good. Supposedly I’m sleeping around 8 hours a night, migraine or not. ha. If only. Top 3 aura/prodrome are muscle stiffness, fatigue/achiness and weakness. Top 3 triggers are neck pain, too much activity and lack of sleep.Top 3 symptoms are neck pain, jaw pain and aches. Frequent start positions are the same, temples, jaw, eyes, base of skull. Soaking my feet has helped a lot this month

Overall Health/Treatment: Up until this past weekend the neurological pain (aka Fibromyalgia) and all was terrible and I was pretty much on the couch. I had some bursts of energy  but not until recently  did it ease enough that I felt like getting up and doing something. I struggled with anxiety/guilt a lot as well. Focused on adding in/increasing supplements to support this poor body.  The evenings are the worst, no matter what I try. I’ve been going to bed in a lot of fibro pain and migraine, just praying I’ll be able to sleep.

notes: 4-28-Migraine was worse today. Aches eased until evening- went to dog park and made dinner then they increased in my calves bad. Barely able to keep migraine down today. Nice to have some energy and the brain fog lifted but the pain’s wearing me down. Have had some muscle twitches today

4-30- today has left me bone- weary. Even the movement of my tongue hurts my jaw. The all-over aches have eased a little, but the cramps are little shivers that regularly run through the base of my feet. Bad migraine today. Wasn’t aware of what was going on around me for a while. Nap helped but body is SCREWED up. Tomorrow is going to be a day of loving on it. 

What do you find hard to tell people about your health? 

 

Health update – January 2017

31 Jan

 

Well, folks, as I’m writing this I’m fighting nausea like nobody’s business – along with a migraine, so forgive me if it doesn’t all make sense.

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Here’s the update from my migraine app from this past month : I have had 1 attack-free day. They average at 34 1/2 hrs. I’m (supposedly) getting 8 hrs of sleep a night. 76% of them occur on a weekday. The pain average is 8, minimum a 7, maximum a 10. Fatigue/achiness, muscle stiffness and headache are the top 3 auras. Neck pain, interrupted sleep and lack of sleep are the top 3 triggers. Likely triggers are interrupted sleep, pre-cycle and neck pain. Symptoms are neck pain, jaw pain and fatigue. Frequent start positions are temples, eyes, jaw, neck and base of skull. Relief methods that seem to work are clonidine, pulsatilla, oils and food/water.

~While I love having this app, it isn’t as accurate as I’d really like. part of that problem is that one must pay close attention and then input said attention into the app. So. perhaps it’s not fully the app’s fault. (coughcough)   To compare with last month’s though, the average time has gone down, while my nightly sleep has gone up! Most are now occurring on weekdays, and average pain has gone down one level. Fatigue is still a major issue; neck pain is a consistent trigger and symptoms have stayed the same.

What’s interesting about this ‘synopsis’ is that I would have said the pain had gone up this month…. but! I will trust what I put in the app and roll with it.

Overall Health: Honestly, I’ve felt so rotten this month that it’s really started to affect my moods and productivity. The chronic pains that have flared up again are so bad that I just don’t want to move majority of the time. Heaven save me from living on the couch.

Treatment: I made the mistake of running out of several vitamins/supplements at the same time and have been paying for it….dearly. I’ve added almost all of them back in, as well as iron and feverfew. My Dr. says she has rarely seen someone as low in iron as I am. I’m also super high in fibrinogen, a protein that is essential for blood clot formation. I’ve been needing to take 3-4 clonidine a day for the migraines.

Migraines: They seem to have gotten more intense as the month has progressed. Only one hit a ’10’ though. something to be grateful for. The clonidine and natural pain killers I use haven’t been very effective. At all. Nothing has been touching these things = super fun, that.

Digestion and TMJ : Digestion has been some better. Jaw pain is about the same.

Sleep:  Aside from taking Theanine a few nights last week, I haven’t been taking anything to help me sleep. It’s so nice. I am waking up once or twice a night and am sometimes still able to get back to sleep when I wake early in the am. This is not to say that I’m waking up rested and refreshed (I was probably a pre-teen the last time that happened). I’m fighting exhaustion , and taking naps all the time.

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Memory/Brain fog:  This has been a continued struggle. I am praying that the iron i’m taking helps with blood flow and gets more oxygen to my brain, thus improving this. Fog hasn’t been too awful, but gets worse when i’m in a crowded room.

I get to add another few items to this months list:

Vision– my eyes are having a hard time focusing, even with my glasses on. it’s of course worse when I’m tired or the migraine is worse but it’s a pretty constant thing these days.

Feet/leg cramps –  these are back like crazy. i’m thankful that most of the time it’s just a matter of tenseness rather than straight up cramps but it’s still painful.

Dizziness- i’m having to remember to stand up slowly. no sudden movements.

Joint pain – like none other, people.

Nausea – Out of everything I’m adding here, this is the one that I’d ask to go away first. it’s what’s keeping me down today, when the migraine isn’t bad.

Moodiness – yes, it’s bad enough that it gets its own category. I was so glad when my moods evened out months ago that it’s frustrating this problem has resurfaced.

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I have also lost almost 5 lbs – and then promptly regained it.

Well, there it is – January’s health update! I’m not off to a very good start this year but my doctor is such an encourager, that I’m clinging to her optimism. I’ve also been going to a chiropractor for my back/hip pain and am summoning up the courage to call the dentist and make a TMJ appointment. So perhaps February will see a change.

Check out my Chronic Pain page to see all my health updates and health advice!

~Laura

 

 

 

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