Oct. 2017 Book Review

1 Nov

I jumped around from book to book so much the past month – and then I started some more Brandon Sanderson books and I have a hard time putting them down…So every other book slooowed way down.

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Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte – After a tragic childhood, orphan Jane Eyre emerges with her spirit intact. She takes a governess job at Thornfield, where she meets the enigmatic Mr. Rochester. They fall in love and plan to marry – but then she learns of an obstacle to her happiness. Heartbroken, Jane stays true to herself and seeks a life that offers peace and self-respect, if not love.

~It took me so long to get through this! I had only read this once before and I ended up enjoying it just as much the second time as the first. Her tenacity in staying true to what she knows is right is inspiring.

The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (Chronicles of Narnia) by C.S. Lewis – When Lucy Pevensie stumbles into the magical land of Narnia, she meets Mr. Tumnus, who ignores the command of the White Witch and leads her back home again. When she tells her siblings, Peter, Susan and Edmund, they don’t believe her but as luck would have it, they all discover Narnia and meet Aslan, the Great Lion. And that begins an adventure that Lucy and her siblings will never forget.

~I will do a full review of this series once I’ve finished it, but for now, know that I’m thoroughly enjoying this series again – it’s only my second time reading it. I love how Lewis talks to the reader in places. Not every author can pull this off but he does. 

Collected Poems of Henry David Thoreau –  I read a few throughout the book but with all the books I’m currently reading, and nanowrimo starting tomorrow (!) I decided to return this one to the library. I do, however, want to get it again and give it a more thorough going-over.

Mistborn series (books 4-6) by Brandon Sanderson – Separate review coming soon!

Series Review – English Garden by Lori Wick

Book Review – Stepping Heavenward

Currently Reading :

Just the Essentials by Adina Grigore

Jewish Roots by Dan Juster

Beside Still Waters by Annalee Conti

Indelible by Kristen Heitzmann

Prince Caspian (Chronicles of Narnia #2) by C.S. Lewis

 

To-Read List:

More Narnia books

Samantha Among the Brethren by Josiah Allen’s Wife (printed 1892)

 

I’m really not figuring I’ll read much this coming month. I do want to finish everything that I’m in though, so that will be more than enough. I’m hoping to spend a lot of time and focus on editing my novel during nanowrimo! Because of that – and Thanksgiving in three weeks! –  posting might be a bit spotty. Happy November!

~Laura

What are your currently reading? 

 

Book Review – Stepping Heavenward

19 Oct

Stepping Heavenward by Mrs. E. Prentiss is, I feel, a book that every woman should read – no matter their age or where they are in life. It was given to me by some dear friends when I graduated from culinary school and I thoroughly enjoyed  it, and learned from it then. But this time reading it as a wife and sufferer of chronic illness, I feel like I gained so much more from it.

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(side note: I’m currently trying to learn a new image editor… bear with me as I figure it out) 

We watch as Katherine grows from a sixteen year old girl, in the year of 1831, to a woman of God with a husband and children. The trials of life beat against her as she seeks to live her life honoring God.

I marked a few sections that I wanted to share in this review:

“I see now that my first desire has not been to please God but to please myself, for I am restless under His restraining hand and find my prison a very narrow one. I would be willing to bear any other trial if I could only have health and strength for my beloved ones. I pray for patience with bitter tears.”

“The scenes of sorrow through which we have been passing have brought (husband) nearer to me than ever… Besides we have modified each other. (He) is more demonstrative, more attentive to those little things that make the happiness of married life; and I am less childish, less vehement- I wish I could say less selfish, but here I seem to have come to a standstill.”

Trying not to give anything away by taking out the name of her husband!

“Bishop Wilson charges us to bear all things ‘as unto God’ and “with the greatest privacy’. How seldom I have met them save as lions in my way that I would avoid if I could, and how I have tormented my friends by tedious complaints about them! Yet when compared with the great tragedies of suffering I have both witnessed and suffered, how petty they seem!”

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I identified so often with Katherine in the struggles of life and seeking to do the right thing, that I ended the book encouraged in the path. It reminded me that we all grow and change, even if we don’t see that growth. That we are not meant to suffer through life but to thrive and to make our will aligned with His. As I said before, I recommend this book to anyone. Yes it’s written in an older style, as you can see in the sections I shared but how deep and rich a meaning of daily faith is weaved throughout this book.

Also – Elizabeth Elliot even recommended it to “men, who need to better understand the wives they live with, and to any woman who wants to walk with God.” 

~Laura

Have you read this book? what did you think of it? Have you read a book like this, that inspired you? 

Nanowrimo Prep

17 Oct

For those of you who are scratching your head about what in the world nanowrimo is. I’ll explain. It’s National Novel Writing Month, every November. It’s when people – all over the world- commit to writing a novel in one month. The minimum goal is 50k words.

I’ve done this for four years now and as much as I want to work on my second book and get a bunch of it written next month, I’m sticking to my original plan – which is working on my first book. Last year I went through and edited my first draft of the same book. Not wanting to do the exact same thing, I decided I’d write out the new scenes that I know need written. Right now the manuscript is about 70k (? possibly 80k).

So, last week I printed out the entire manuscript!!!! And now I’m reading through it, editing as I go – on the page and the computer – as well as putting tabs where I’m going to add scenes. Hopefully this will make it easy next month to work through, adding bits in! I’m glad I have a few more weeks left because I’m moving pretty slowly through it.

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The other benefit of doing this is that it’s helping me get the timeline of events straight in my head. Plus, it makes it feel more real that I’ve written a book! (cue freak-out session.)

Are you doing nano as well? Are you pantsing or prepping? 

~Laura

Health Update Sept/Oct 2017

12 Oct

Whew, finally getting this written! I’m gonna give myself a little plug here before I get started.

If you want more consistent updates on how I’m doing, follow me over on Instagram! I’m on there regularly, sharing how I’m doing with dosage increases, doctor visits and whatever else hits me as I fight to get better! (plus, there’s super cute puppy pictures too)

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Overall Health: While fatigue has been less INTENSE, it is still very present, making it one of my main struggles of the month. Dealing with reaction to Iberogast. Not getting good/enough sleep. Bladder issues.

9-12 IV today. Brain fog but ‘compelled to DO’ today. Drove down to Bend on my own! Days away from cycle
9-14 fatigue day. Migraine kicked up. Bit of brain fog. 
9-15 worse fatigue today. Level 9 migraine in evening. 
9-19 upped Iberogast to 2 drops/day. Felt bad in afternoon and awful in evening. Migraine. Jaw. Achy. Etc. 
9-20 same reaction this aft at yest. But not quite as intense perhaps? 
9-22 putting Iberogast in warm water rather than hot tea. Seeing if this helps my reaction/detox to it. Yesterday’s fatigue was intense. Back hurt in evening
9-27 aft. sparkly vision. Severe migraine and fatigue rest of day
9-28 migraine and fatigue hit in afternoon
10-1 fatigue lingered today, able to get out though. Napped in afternoon. Migraine kept down with 2 clonidine. Upped Iberogast to 4drops/day in evening
10-3 IV today. Added poly mba at the end, along with glutathione. 
10-4 woke up achy and tired but had a burst of energy rest of morning. Migraine kicking in early afternoon. Severe migraine and bad fibromyalgia in evening. Rough night.
10-5 woke up rough and weak. 
10-6 woke up pretty good. Tired but ended up with a lot of energy most of the day, despite brain fog. Migraine and fibropain kicking in mid evening. Can’t seem to stop it. 

10-9 upped Iberogast to 5 drops/day
10-10 fatigue and just feeling overall awful this am. Want to get things done but just can’t…. So tired. Woke up with migraine. After a few hrs was able to get up and DO. migraine flared off and on all day. Only flared a bit in evening.

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Migraines: I have done better keeping track of these on my migraine app. Still a little wonky so I can’t use all of the feedback from it but here are a few. These have been averaging at a level 9. Aura and Prodrome are : headache, muscle stiffness and tingling in head. Triggers seem to be: body aches, interrupted sleep and lack of sleep. Top 3 symptoms are neck pain, fatigue and jaw pain. They typically start in the temples, eyes, jaw and base of skull. Most days I can get the pain down to where I can function – and get things done.

~ an ice pack has been my go-to lately. laying on it, or having it on my forehead helps so much.

 

Sleep: This has been a big struggle for me. Falling and staying asleep is so hard. I always sleep with my heating pad under my neck.

Memory/Disassociation: At times I feel like my memory is getting better but I don’t think it is. (no joke intended there, hehe) I will say that I have’t dealt with disassociation this month. Over-stimulation, yes. Frequently.

Vision: This has only happened once this month. I am so relieved about this!

Fibromyalgia: It has reached drive-me-insane level a few times this month. Augh. My joints regularly hurt – especially my elbows. And that often spreads tingles to my pinkies and ring fingers. It is just about guaranteed to happen if I’m holding something (phone, book, crochet, steering wheel etc) for a long time. (this has improved a bit from last month!) Ice, advil and light massaging help. The self-cramping that my left calf does and the ripples of pain that shoot along the bottoms of my feet still happen. But my hands aren’t self-cramping as bad although I do have to stretch my fingers out often because they just HURT.

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~Pain and anxiety go hand in hand.~ The last few days I’ve felt a restlessness to be HEALTHY, to be WHOLE. To be past this struggle. I feel as if parts of me are dying, withering away under all of this stress, physically and emotionally. I’m impatient to move on with my life. But I remind myself that my main goal needs to be to keep my eyes on Him – the One who is my Refuge and Strength. No matter what earthly trial I am in, He alone is my Salvation, my Rock. As long as I keep my eyes on Him and ask that my will ever is aligned with His, I will have lived a good and full life.

TMJ – This has been popping/hurting a lot still and I’m thinking it’s because I haven’t been to the bodywork dr in months. My teeth ache quite frequently from the stress of me clenching/grinding them at night.

Fatigue: As I said above, this is one of my main complaints from this month. The deep-seated fatigue that just aches and drags me down. I still am compelled to get up and DO things but sometimes the two opposites are at war with each other. Some mornings I am stuck on the couch but then can get up in the afternoon. I want to make a distinction – before it would be so bad that it was hard for me to stay upright in a chair, and I mean, really hard.  Now though, while it is still difficult, I rarely am struggling to stay in it rather than feeling like a cartoon where the character just melts off the seat into a puddle. So, while the fatigue is still bad, it’s not where it used to be.

Weight Loss: I have come out even this month – losing and then gaining it back. I’m a little bit frustrated but I have been less strict on my diet, so….. (by that I mean that I’ve had starch here and there)

Mood: This has improved…sort of. My inward negativity goes in waves, but it’s better than it being constant. I’m sure that being able to get things done around the house helps with this.

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IV time again – Hallelujah! Lovely nutrients with gluithione at the end. We’re also going to try a bit of poly (can’t remember the full name right now) at the end as well to see how I do with it. Was able to have a good talk with the Dr about next possible steps, with some suggestions for tests before the end of the year. Brain fog and fatigue are hitting hard today.

Bladder: This is the other main struggle this month. I can’t get back to how my digestion/bladder were a few months ago. (is it really that long ago?) Even when I was cutting out ALL processed and starch. I am waking up typically 3 times a night to go to the bathroom, even when I don’t really need to.

~I wanted to do a quick update of my progress from this time last year. I’ll try to keep it short. I still struggle with many of these same symptoms as well as have added quite a few. (oh joy). But I have more energy overall. And we’ve figured out more of what’s going on with my body to combat it!

What I’m currently taking:

1 each day of  A, B complex, Calcium, Chaste Tree Berry

2 each day of Ashwagandha, B2, Berberine, Butterbur, D3, E, Feverfew, Fibronol, Magnesium, Xiao Chai Hu Tang, Noni Fruit

3 a day St. John’s Wort

1 drop Ceanothus one day a week. 5 drops a day Iberogast (slowly upping)

on Days 15-28, 1 Horse Chestnut Extract and 2 Chaste Tree Berry

Clonidine – prescription pain pills. Averaging 2 a day

Gelsimium, Pulsatilla, Belladonna, phosphorus and one more… – tincture in water that I take when I need relief

essential oils

~Several of these I need to increase, but I’m focusing solely on the Iberogast right now.

I know this was long this month but I wanted to get it all in!

How have you been this month? Do you have any questions for me about what I’m taking/doing? Ask away!

~Laura

Series Review – English Garden by Lori Wick

6 Oct

Ahh, fellow book lovers. If you’ve been following SGL for a while, you know that I love Lori Wick books. This series is probably my favorite of hers. Although, to be completely transparent, I feel that way after every book or series of hers. They all are so delightful that the most currently-read one is my favorite.

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Photo by Ruxandra Mateiu on Unsplash

This series is set in the early 1800s in Collingbourne, England and by the end of the four books you will wish you could live in the delightful small town that Wick creates.

The Proposal – When William Jennings finds three young cousins on his doorstep, he is at a loss as to what to do with them. Needing guidance, he seeks out his sister and her husband. In the process, he meets Marianne.

The Rescue – Weston had planned on a quiet entry into town but instead is forced into marriage within hours of his arrival. Eventually he sees that his new wife, Anne, had no choice in the matter either, but still chose to risk her reputation to protect his good name.

The Visitor – Alexander Tate has come to town to rest- and hopefully regain his eyesight. As a distraction, one of the beautiful Steele sisters comes to read to him. But he never expects to fall in love with her.

The Pursuit – Edward Steele is finally heading home from Africa when his trip is waylaid by fellow passengers in need of assistance. This adventure, from Portugal to England,  eventually leads to meeting the mysterious Nicola Bettencourt.

 

Wick admitted to being a Jane Austen fan and this series is a sort of tribute to her. Which, really, makes it that much better. I love reading books set in this time period. Wick, as usual, filled them with so much good, faith-based lessons that at the end of each one I was contemplating them just as much as I was the story. I will add that the last novel, The Pursuit, is probably my favorite of the four- it deviates from ‘just’ a romance story in a delightful way.

This series would be great for early-teens (it’s when I started reading them!) as they are clean, fun, faith-based and just great stories.

 

~While covering different genres, I do not read anything that has blatant sexual content. I will tell you if there is any sort of such (typically very mild and delicately put) in them and if I don’t think they’d be appropriate for young/teenage readers.~

What are you currently reading? Have you read any of Lori Wick’s novels? What did you think of them? 

(also, I love getting comments from you guys! please share what you’re reading, or what you’re wanting to read!)

~Laura

Monthly Goals Link-up : Oct. 2017

3 Oct

You guys! It’s officially fall! Okay, okay, I know it has been for over a week now but I’m celebrating it now. I woke up with a craving for pumpkin muffins this morning, so that’s going to hopefully happen this week.

I got to go to Bend in September to meet my newest nephew. (have I told you guys this already?) I made it a point to get to see all of my nieces and nephews that are in town this trip. Family was the priority this go-round.

I have done pretty well on my goals this past month, well…On the ones that I knew I’d do. If that makes sense. Anyway, let’s just hop to it, shall we?

 

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Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

Recap of Monthly Goals:

Integrate new scene into ‘Amelia’ – I’ve only worked on this a little bit. But I did finally save it on a flash drive!

Post Regularly – I missed a few (or more?) that I’d intended to write

Lose weight/work toward health – for more info, check out Health Update Aug/Sept 2017

Read more books on Jewish living –  I’m currently reading Jewish Roots by Dan Juster

Write a letter to one person a month  – nope

Try a new recipe – Mostly this month I’ve thrown meals together but I did make 2 from Against All Grains – the Banana Pancakes and Vanilla Granola. I most likely fudged both recipes, making them with things I had on hand, rather than following them exactly. But they both were yummy and I really want to make the granola again. It was the first time I’d made soaked-nut granola, also oat-free and I loved it!

Watch/Read a documentary/biography – I watched part of Gordon Buchanan’s Tribes Animals and Me.

 

Recap of Sept goals:

Finish Adirondack Chair before the rains come – nope and I doubt now that it’ll get any work done on it until spring/summer next year. For now, it’s sitting in my office. Sad.

Work on Disability – I did call a disability lawyer beginning of this month but haven’t heard back from them. I haven’t called them back either though soo….

Scrapbook Laura’s visit – I’m 3/4 of the way done with it!

Deep Clean bedroom – we bought a bed frame finally! Getting that really helped give me the motivation to finish cleaning the room.

Two things I didn’t think I could do, but I did!

~Drove to a friends’ house and back – that equals an hr drive! I was so excited that I was able to do this!

~Drove to Bend and back! – it’s 3 hours one way so I was nervous about it but I did fine!

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Oct goals:

Go to a pumpkin patch

Deep Clean Laundry Room

Call Disability Lawyer again

Buy Cover for the VW Bug

Trim crazy grass bushes in front of yard

Prep for NANOWRIMO

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Linking up with Stay Gold Autumn again!

~Laura

Sept 2017 Book Review

29 Sep

I don’t have a lot to share with you this month since my to-read list is longer than my just-read list! Ha.

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Spindle’s End  by Robin Mckinley – On her name-day, Princess Briar-Rose is cursed by Pernicia to one day prick her finger on the spindle of a spinning wheel and fall into a never-ending sleep. But Katriona, a young fairy, kidnaps her in order to save her from her fate. She takes the princess to her small village and there, her aunt and her raise Briar-Rose where no one knows her true identity. But Pernicia won’t easily give up the chance to exact revenge for a defeat over four hundred years old.

~I first read this in 2015 and have to say that I enjoyed it even more this second time. The world-detail that bothered me last time didn’t even phase me. I’m not sure if that’s because I’ve been reading more fantasy since then or just because..well, I’ve already read it. Perhaps a little of both, eh? Either way, this book has shot to the top ten of my favorite ‘fantasy’ books – right under Mckinley’s Beauty  and Sanderson’s Elantris and Mistborn.

 

The English Garden Series – The Visitor and The Pursuit by Lori Wick – Set in the early 1800s in England, this series has a delightful ‘Austen’ feel that I love.

~click here to see my separate, full review.

The Power of a Praying Wife by Stormie OMartian – Worrying about your marriage isn’t going to do anything, but praying about it can change everything! This book is set up in a prayer-a-day format with stories from real-life and verses that go with the topic. Some of the topics are: his spiritual walk, his health, his roles as father/leader/etc, his emotions.

~ I knew I needed to get back into the habit of praying for my OH (and our marriage) so I pulled this off the shelf again and am glad that I did. I have marked the prayers that I felt were especially relevant for him and us and have plans to go back over them regularly. I reviewed this here a few years ago as well.

Currently Reading:

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte (how have I not finished this yet? I’ll tell you. my copy was printed in the 1800’s so I won’t read it while: eating, bathing, outside with the puppy playing in the water, etc….)

Stepping Heavenward by Mrs. E. Prentiss

Jewish Roots by Dan Juster

 

On my To-Read Next List:

Beside Still Waters by AnnaLee Conti

Collected Poems of Henry Thoreau

Pillar of Fire – Rev. J. H. Ingraham (printed 1864)

Samantha Among the Brethren by Josiah Allen’s Wife (printed 1892)

Brandon Sanderson books from library

 

~While covering different genres, I do not read anything that has blatant sexual content. I will tell you if there is any sort of such (typically very mild and delicately put) in them and if I don’t think they’d be appropriate for young/teenage readers.~

What have you been reading? 

~Laura

 

 

 

 

 

Book Review – Boundaries

Character Creation : Aunt Angie

27 Sep

Hello again! Today I’m going to share some more information on another one of my characters from my book – I’m using this Character development sheet  although I will point out that it has changed and several of the new questions/areas aren’t what I want to focus on. So I’m a little bummed. But I pulled off aspects from the original sheet I printed last year (ish) and pulled the two together.

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So here we go!

Today’s character is Angela Barrington – nickname is Angie – American – widow – mid/late 50s – oldest of two girls – sister is Diana Hughes (Amelia’s mother)

~Loves the theatre and opera houses. Loves traveling.

Standing in Society – near the TOP

Eye Color – green

Height – 5 ft 7in

Type of body/build – slim/trim

skin tone – medium/pale

Is she healthy? – no. she has a debilitating disease that is as of yet unnamed (will it ever be?)

Favorite Literature – poets (named in story…)

Mode of Transportation – Carriages (she has several)

Daredevil or cautious – a bit of both – she had to be to end up where she is in Society

Is she the same when she’s alone? – yes. although she worries more when she’s alone

Good Characteristics – good listener, encourager, lighthearted (fun to be around)

Drives and Motivations – live life to the fullest while she can, give her niece a better life/chance to chase her dreams

Introvert or Extrovert – Extrovert

Optimist or Pessimist – optimist

Character Flaws – worries, has a hard time forgiving her sister

Biggest regret – that she didn’t have any children

Minor regrets –  won’t see Amelia wed (?)

Biggest Accomplishments- giving Amelia a new life

Character’s Darkest Secret/ does anyone know? – I can’t come up with a dark secret for her.

 

~Also, picmonkey has recently made it impossible to export photos without signing up and as I don’t want to pay/need that money for other things, does anyone have a suggestion for another free photo editor that I can start using? ~

~Laura

 

 

Book Review – Boundaries

22 Sep

Boundaries by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend.

“When to Say Yes

When to Say No

To Take Control of Your Life”

 

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Photo by Nick Tiemeyer on Unsplash

My OH had been suggesting, off and on, that I read this book since we first met. And finally, after some things happened, I decided that I really could benefit from it. It took me a few months to get through – as most books like this do since I tend to read them during breakfast. I feel like I gained so much from this book, as the authors take you step-by-step through why people act the way they do. As well as how to set up boundaries in the different areas of your life – such as family, friends, work and God.  I learned so much in the sections about how we form boundaries in our childhood through what was said and what was not said from those around us.

Here are a few sections that stood out to me :

“Boundaries help us to distinguish our property so that we can take care of it… We need to keep things that will nurture us inside our fences and keep things that will harm us outside. In short, boundaries help us keep the good in and the bad out. They guard our treasures so that people will not steal them… Sometimes, we have bad on the inside and good on the outside. In these instances, we need to be able to open up our boundaries to let the good in and the bad out. In other words, our fences need gates in them.” Page 31

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Do not try to get to freedom without owning your reactive period and feelings. You do not need to act this out, but you do need to express the feelings. You need to practice and gain assertiveness. You need to get far enough away from abusive people to be able to fence your property against further invasion. And then you need to own the treasures you find in your soul. But do not stay there. Spiritual adulthood has higher goals than “finding yourself” “. Page 96

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“... Because of unexpressed boundaries, the relationships suffered. An important thing to remember about boundaries is that they exist, and they will affect us, whether or not we communicate them... If our boundaries are not communicated and exposed directly, they will be communicated indirectly or through manipulation. The Bible speaks to this issue in many places. Listen to the words of Paul: “therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. ‘In your anger do not sin’ : do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. (Eph.4:25-26) The biblical mandate is be honest and be in the light.” Page 101

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“Anger tells us that our boundaries have been violated. Much like a nation’s radar defense system, angry feelings serve as an “early warning system”, telling us we are in danger of being injured or controlled.” Page 112

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“The more biblical our boundaries are, the less anger we experience! Individuals with mature boundaries are the least angry people in the world. While those who are just beginning boundary work see their anger increase, this passes as boundaries grow and develop… The old saying ‘don’t get mad. Just get even’ isn’t accurate. It’s far better to say, ‘don’t get mad. Set a limit!” Page 115

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“You can imagine how well not taking ownership over our lives will come across the Lord then: ‘but I had a dysfunctional family.’ ‘But I was lonely.’ ‘But I didn’t have much energy.’ The rationalizing “buts” will have as much impact as excuses of the service in the parable of the talents did. This isn’t to say that we are deeply influenced for better or worse by our backgrounds and our various stressors. We certainly are. But we are ultimately responsible for what we do with our injured, immature souls.” Page 178

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I especially liked the analogy of ‘fences make good neighbors’ – just make sure to ‘have a gate’. Our fences aren’t walls to keep everyone and everything out.

Like I said, these are just a few of the sections that stood out to me as I read this book. I feel like from the day I started reading it, I was recommending it. To my doctor, friends, family etc. This will most likely be a yearly read for me.

I have also read another of their books, Boundaries in Marriage, and it was equally good. I have plans to get it from the library and read it again, since it’s been four years since I read it. (I did a mini-review of it here)

I definitely recommend this book for anyone and everyone! Whether you realize that you need to set better boundaries – with yourself or those around you – or not, I know you’ll learn a lot from it.

~Laura

 

Health Update Aug/Sept 2017

12 Sep

I can’t believe it’s really time to do another health update but this is the first one in a long while that I’m excited to share! I’ve seen baby steps of forward movement in this long healing journey of mine. I will probably end up steps back again in the weeks to come but for now I’m relishing the mini victories. One of them being that I have been just well enough that I’m planning on making the 3 hr drive to visit family and meet my newest nephew! This is HUGE for me, and although there’s a decent level of anxiety about actually being able to do it – I cannot wait any longer to meet little Joseph. ( This little guy makes 18 (!!) nieces and nephews).

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Overall Health: I feel like I’ve had extremes this month. I’m either feeling really well or really awful. I am able to see some improvement, though vision loss is a regular thing now.

Dr. Thoughts: She is thinking that I might have SIBO (small intestine bacteria overgrowth) so I am currently taking berberine and iberogast for it. She knows of a new test that is being developed for Lyme that I might be able to have done for free as part of the… what’s it called? Research? (hello Lyme brain right in the middle of a post…) Which would be so great to try and get even more answers.

8-16 started bacteriaphage, awful nausea. 
8-17 woke up with level 8 migraine. Didn’t go down much all day. Fatigue. Not as much nausea from phage
8-18 feel pretty good today. Getting stuff done around the house even. 
8-21 some nausea this am. A little tired but doing good! Yesterday was last day of bacteriophage. 
8-22 IV today. Tired but did good til evening, as usual. Migraine flared. 
8-23 fatigue in am, then mild nausea as well in the afternoon. Ears sensitive. 
8-24 upped lightning pearls to 3/day
8-26 last few days, fibropain has started flaring. 
8-27 slight spasms of fibropain. Pinky and ring fingers been tingly last few days. started berberine. 
8-30 past few days, teeth have been hurting. Jaw worse than normal. Today fibropain in elbows and wrists. Pinky and ring finger on left hand have been tingling all day. Most likely from sanding the other day. Fatigue and achy stronger than it’s been. 
8-31 vision blurry and sparkly early afternoon. Slept 2hrs. Migraine flared to a 9 in evening. Weak. Achy. Migraine down to an 8 now. Day 14.
9-2 feels like another vision loss day coming… 
9-4 started iberogast. 9 drops/day. 
9-5 rough day. Fought off losing vision but migraine high and body weak.                                 9- 9 dropped iberogast down to 1 drop/day, reacting too strongly to it. mild tingling and cramping in same places as on the 30th. 

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Migraines:  There has been some improvement. Mostly during the day. I’m able to -at the least- keep the level down, more easily these days. They still flare up intensely in the evenings. As well as if I’m around anything LOUD or overly BRIGHT (making it difficult to sit through service or a movie, or spend much time in any sort of store…)

~I am doing better keeping track of my migraine on the app on my phone, but not good enough to be able to use the information from it. I miss having that info, so I’m really trying to remember to take the time to do it.

Sleep: I’m still cycling Theanine and Melatonin most nights but even with them, I’m waking up several times and only asleep for just about 7 hours.

Memory/Disassociation: I am seeing sporadic improvement in getting over-stimulated, and not disassociating quite as often although it’s still frequent. I find that I am more and more reluctant to leave my house because of it. I’m not sure if there’s been any change in my memory. Oy.

Vision: I now partially lose – or almost lose- the vision in my left eye about twice a week. Often I am able to keep the following level 10 migraine to a short one, or avoid it altogether. While I’m thankful for that, it’s still very frustrating to have this vision issue so frequent. The feeling that comes with it is awful and the fear/anxiety is terrible.

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Nutrient IV and a great read – Jane Eyre

Dizziness: I almost feel like I could take this one off the list for now. I don’t get dizzy very often anymore

Fibromyalgia: For a second month in a row, the drive-me-insane level of pain hasn’t come. But it’s been just under that several times — where i’m bouncing my leg or such because it hurts too bad to be completely still but it hurts too bad to get off the couch and actually move. Oof da. My joints regularly hurt – especially my elbows. And that often spreads tingles to my pinkies and ring fingers. It is just about guaranteed to happen if I’m holding something (phone, book, crochet, steering wheel etc) for a few minutes or longer. Ice, advil and light massaging help. My hands still curl up and feel as if my fingers are tensing on the inside – as well as the self-cramping that my left calf does and the ripples of pain that shoot along the bottoms of my feet.

TMJ – This has been popping/hurting more frequently again and I’m really thinking it’s because I haven’t been to the bodywork dr in months. My teeth ache quite frequently from the stress of me clenching/grinding them at night.

Fatigue: I’ve noticed something interesting this past month – Most mornings I am almost…compelled to get up and DO. Clean. Take the dogs to the park. Prep dinner. etc. I just have to be UP and doing something. Even when I know I need to stop and relax, its like I can’t… and I’m not sure why. I haven’t had a lot of awful fatigue, it’s been mostly a level 6 on a scale of 1 -10.

Weight loss: I have been a little bit stricter this month on what I eat, which means I’ve lost about 2 lbs this month. I’m pleased with that because it’s really hard for me to lose weight.

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I fit into these slacks for the first time in months!

Mood: I don’t feel that this has changed much. I still get frustrated easily, and have more negative thoughts than normal.

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Bladder: I just realized that I haven’t mentioned the fact that I tried a new 5-day treatment specifically for the Ecoli strain in my gut – it was bacteriophage. (I mentioned this in my Instagram). For that week-ish, my digestion was better, as well as any bm’s. (i’m trying not to be too tmi here, but digestion issues are common in those dealing with Lyme). Since then, it’s been a bit more touch-and-go, which is frustrating.

Next month I think I’ll do an update of everything I’m taking, as well as compare to where I  was this time last year. (It’s been just over a year since I got a diagnosis). But for now, I’ll close with a question:

Are you seeing any forward movement in your dreams? (be they health, career, hobby, etc related)? 

~Laura

Also, Abby Pond turned two at the beginning of the month and (thanks to google photos) I made this video!