Thoughts are swirling tonight as I realize – yet again – that my plans are not God’s plans. Had these last ten years gone according to my dreams I would have several degrees, a profitable career of my own business and children. Instead God chose to have me learn leaning on Him through physical trials- through college, work and even my wedding day. While I don’t understand completely why He chose this way of teaching me, I trust that His plans are better than my own. So, while part of me wants to have a bit of a pity party that I am not able to accomplish all I wanted to, I will focus on the blessings that I have been given.
So, all this to say that I am a bit sad tonight – a large part of that due to my hip sending pain down my leg and sharp pain in my temples making themselves well known- and felt the need to write a bit. Reminding myself that my God is bigger than my disappointed hopes, unrealized dreams and broken body. Reminding myself that I am an incredibly blessed child of the King. Good night, friends, I am off to read more of a Dee Henderson novel and then – hopefully- sleep. – Laura